Monday morning. Worse. And I had to get the kids ready, me ready, studio ready, out the door by 8am. Workout. Shower. Client at 10am. Finish up around noon. All the while texting a company about fixing it. Dropped it off around 1pm.
Then I went through what felt like detox.
I just got it back this afternoon around 4:30 but didn't get to sit down and try it till the kids were in bed at 9.
I
am
AMAZED
at
how
DEPENDENT
I
have
become
on
technology.
Humbled, actually.
By my inability to
LET
IT
GOooooooooooooooooooo
I felt like I was pregnant again. You know…that feeling where you KNOW you're forgetting something. You KNOW there is something you should be doing. You simply, cannot, for the life of you remember what?!?
And so I paced. In my mind. In my home. In my heart.
Like a lost puppy wandering around looking for its home.
Yet what was right in front of me?
MY KIDS
MY HUSBAND
MY DEVOTIONS
MY STUDY
MY BATHTUB
MY BOOKS
Did I go out of my way to spend more time with any of these things? Not really.
Not as much as I'd like to report to you. I wish I could say I indulged.
Instead….all I am left with are my feelings of embarrassment. Humility. Inadequacy.
I had a gift. A gift to be 'unplugged' for 2 days. I wasted it.
Once, again, God is showing me in multiple ways that I need to slow down. That He wants more of me. That He wants me in His Word. Every. Single. Day.
Reminded of my blessings. My family. My time. Our health.
And I couldn't even think about going to bed tonight until I wrote this here and processed it. Writing it somehow holds me accountable. Makes me pay closer attention.
So now that I shared. I'm tired. Since the boys went to bed, I answered emails. I edited photos. I emailed pics to clients for a deadline I had to meet. I worked on my son's school auction item projects. I checked FB - which I have GOT to get a grip on my obsession with it. Maybe that will be my next blog post.
I'm still sitting here. Staring at my screen. Love affair with the macbook. My husband is lying solo in bed. My kids sound asleep upstairs and will be bouncing down at the crack of dawn. What on earth am I doing? It truly is time for me to be more mindful to
=UNPLUG=