Hope if everybody runs....you choose to stay
hope that you fall in love and it hurts so bad
the only way you can know is to give it all you have
I hope that you don't suffer, but take the pain
hope when the moment comes, you'll say
I did it all. I did it all.
I owned every second that this world could give
Saw so many places and things that I did
with every broken bone...I swear I lived.
My Uncle Mike passed unexpectedly this morning. He's married to my mom's sister. There are 7 in their family. We lost my uncle Don several years back....I was too young to grasp it. This year I lost my aunt on my dad's side and now my uncle on my mom's side. At this phase of life, I get it. And I am crushed.
Five. Five funerals since January. 49 year old friend with a sudden heart attack. My dad's cousin. Shane's work associate. My aunt and now my uncle. Not to mention so many illnesses and heartaches that I can barely keep track of them all for prayer time....I've made a list.
So I have vowed to take more photos of my kids. Vowed to journal more....here. Vowed to lay it all on the line. Vulnerable. Forgiveness. Transparency. Why? Because. We are all in this together, right? We are all just walking each day to its fullest, never know what the next turn will bring. Life is too short for grudges, fear and insecurities.
That being said...I have been snapping photos of my boys this month. Going to share some of our world with you. Some of spring. God's beauty...the new life after the dead of winter. I broke out my oldie but goodie - the D50 and my 1.8/50mm lens. Neither of which I use professionally anymore. Haven't for some time. I decided to put them to good use.
These photos are freedom for me. They are not tact sharp. They are not perfect light. They are real. Raw. Us.
Simple little things....like lunchtime.
And wrestling on the couch first thing in the morning.
Running pant-less around the living room - jumping on mommy's yoga ball.
Baby toes. Miles loves bare feet as much as I did as a kid. He cries when I put shoes on him. So glad its finally getting warmer where he can just run...
Ohio springtime goes from this....
to this in 5 minutes.
This is all I really see of Finn these days. He's 100mph.
But still LOVES his chocolate. Especially chocolate muffins from Granny. : )
Spring time is so promising. New life. Something that was 'dead' over winter, reborn into beautiful spring.
Crazy boys...
Nature's amazing bouquet of colors.
Little boys, basket balls, and mud puddles.
Babies chasing the camera saying 'CHEEEEEEEEESE'
Finding more mud to splash our bare feet in....
This weekend will be hard. But I am reminded by my cousins, aunts, uncles, great uncle, siblings and parents....as we all put our busy lives aside, stop and take a few days to support our loved ones suffering the loss of their husband, father, grandfather....that life goes on. And in the sadness of loss....we gather to celebrate life. I'm grieved by our loss. I'm thankful to see the ones I love this weekend. Godspeed Uncle Mike. I know you're dancing in heaven.