I stopped keeping up with this blog when my business started taking off in 2010. I feel so incredibly blessed to have it bloom to where we are now. I love it. I only wish I had time to be friends with every family I work with because after spending some time together, I love each one. But life has shown me that I have to take care of my own family, my own health, balance my own time before I can give to others. Otherwise, we're just spinning out of control.
So here's to a new beginning. This page is back in business. A place where I can write. A place where I can share. Hopefully a nudge to take more candid shots of my family. I feel like I've been so immersed with work that I've missed precious moments I need to capture. And I need a place (besides facebook where I feel like everyone is drowning in updates on my children and life....as if they need to know EVERYTHING we're doing : ) to let my writing flow. My photos will not be perfect. Often, they will come from my phone. I'll spell things wrong and say awkward things. Because that is the truth about me.
This blog will be purely my raw thoughts. I don't plan on editing. Mostly will be writing late at night. And the sole purpose of it is for me to celebrate my family. I won't be writing to please or impress anyone. Just walking the daily life of juggling motherhood, office manager, business owner, rental coordinator and chef/maid. A place that is mine. If I bore you, I apologize in advance. If I offend you, I truly don't mean to. If I embarrass myself, it won't be the first time.
Fair warning - read at your own risk. This is completely self-serving. One small piece of my day that is for just me. : )
Today:
I am bound and determined to get on a better schedule this year. I have spent the last several years of my life in front of this computer till the wee hours of the morning. My only refuge is napping every 2-3 days when the boys go down. To catch up. To be able to breathe again.
The only problem with this 'schedule' of broken sleep is that Finn is now 5. He may nap once a week, but truly, he's grown out of them...and I need to accept that (sigh). He is an ANGEL because on days when I am completely cashed he will actually sit in bed and play the ipad while I rest for an hour. Then I feel like the worst mother ever. I don't deserve him.
Now Miles (at his ripe age of 2.5) feels like its time for him to give up naps too. But he, clearly, still needs them. But every time I put him in the crib during the day, he wales. Wales like he's hurting. And won't stop. My otherwise happy child waling in his crib is not my idea of a good time. Especially when he keeps carrying on. So I've now resulted in having them nap with me. Ah yes - mother of year.
So I am determined to get an a better schedule this year. Priority #1. I've read at least 5 articles in the last 3 weeks about how happy people wake up at the same time every day - and its early. I have no idea why you'd be happy that early in the morning. : ) But I want to understand. I want to try.
In the Polen news today - this character lost his first tooth. Its been 'wobbly', as he says, for a month? The dentist noticed it on February 18th. Yes - a month. He was really bothered by the fact that a tooth was falling out. My little old man couldn't wrap his head around why that could be a good thing. But I kept reassuring him it was normal and he'd get another tooth. He was very frustrated that his tooth didn't have enough 'power' to chew. : )
While I"m taking Miles out of the tub tonight, Finn is brushing his teeth. Every night he asked me to do it and says - mom, please be careful of my wobbly tooth! And I am. But tonight he started without me. Apparently he had enough. He brushed that wobbly tooth right out of his mouth and down the drain! Wasn't till it was long gone that I realized what happened.
So we wrote this letter to the tooth fairy in hopes she'd understand.
And that's it for today. : )